Ode to Corona April 2020

4/23/2020 Update

Dear Corona

We get it! 

You are the teacher of not knowing

Of uncertainty,

People are discovering these concepts, even unaware they were ever concepts.

They were ideas never thought of by some.  

They were ideas that were never of interest to others.

And, yet, here you are teaching us about living with not knowing, and uncertainty:

Considerable uncertainty on so many levels, our health, our finances, our safety, our general well being, our sanity.

Corona, you have provided us the experience of living with a crisis.  

Our actions say CRISIS, hoarding food, toilet paper, even guns is a thing. Hoarding freedoms, demanding freedoms at the risk of losing lives, at the risk of great suffering.  

It is so hard to find our compass when in crisis, but you keep providing direction and in spite of your guidance, we must keep finding our own true North. We must keep looking for who we are, finding where we turn in this crisis? Learning, again, about who we are.

Fear is a significant element in a crisis, and you, Corona, have provided an excellent stage for that.

A stage we step on, and when we can, we step off.  

When we can, we remember to turn our view from fear, to who we are deep to our core, we remember that we grieve, that we yearn, that our hearts want to be touched, that our hearts are touched. 

We remember we are strong, not from baring weapons, but from a strength deep within, a resilience that says, I can take one more day, and tomorrow I will take another. 

And, I will take the next and then the next until all are safe, and well, and sane.  

That is our strength, 

That is our courage.

That is our pride.

You are reminding us what we do share, we are common together. We can come together because we all breathe, we all bleed the same, our hearts all pound with life, and we are all in this, and we are all figuring it out.

I have to believe “we were made for these times”. (Clarissa Pinkola Estes)  Otherwise, there is little sense to be made.

I am supposed to say thank you Corona, but I can’t exactly.  I can say I will have you as my teacher, I can say I have hope that you will be the teacher of others.  I can say thank you for that.



Is this the time we get to cry?

Is this the time we get to cry?

Cry from self-righteous anger,

Cry from righteous indignation?

Cry from our wounded souls whose hearts have been stabbed and burned too many times with lies?

And lies

And more lies.


Do we cry from sadness?

Do we cry from grief?

Do we cry from the ache inside that says I feel too weak, too beaten?

I am done,

But, I am not.

I am not.


I have now learned the body’s feeling of being disheartened.

I keep learning it.

It is the cracking inside my soul, deep in my chest.

It is the crying of the small child inside me that says, nothing is right,

Nothing will be right.

It is disappointment after disappointment.

And it catches my throat, tugs at my heart.

Will it ever get better?


It is almost time to face 

It is almost time to face

Our sadness

Our grief,

Our fear,

Our loss.


not quite.


Don’t turn there too soon.

Don’t turn there too quickly.

We will have enough time to

Journey into this territory of the dark.

All of us are being called to turn and look there.

Some ignore the call.

And, I say I will not, I can not.

I won’t.


If we can look just there, there into the dark,

If we can say, I see you.

I see you.

We can heal.

We will heal.

And everything,

Everything will be different.

The Earth, the Universe, all living creatures are calling us to step forward, see our humanity.

Calling on us to rise to this momentous occasion.

Calling for our authentic selves to come to

To wake and truly see.

Times like these,

Times like these happen,



“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo.  “So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring


Ellen and Henry April 2020


To be continued…



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Thank you, Ellen